Day 9, BABY. Today is my favorite because it's the day that healing starts. I spent a looooot of time really diving into the frames/memories behind my belief/habit, and lemme tell ya, I was pretty overwhelmed by how much needed healing. It can feel like your drowning from the weight of these memories, and if you're in the same boat, don't worry because I've got your back.
I once had a therapist tell me an analogy that I use allll the time, especially if I feel like I'm drowning. She compared your emotions and memories to a garden hose. If you put your hand over the hose to stop the water, you're gonna get MESSY and CHAOTIC. When we're drowning, we often try to stop the water all together. We put our hand over the hose and try to block it all out. And by doing that, we get messy with all these unhealthy habits and beliefs that then control us. But instead of trying to stop the flow, what if we directed it? What if we let it flow freely, and directed the flow in a way that actually watered our garden instead of drowning it?
For me, that means acknowledging the flow, acknowledging the fact that there are real hurtful memories that are extremely painful to remember. Sitting with that feeling is actually healthy because it shows the brain that it's okay to acknowledge it. Your inner child is begging you to acknowledge it because your inner child can't direct the flow until you do so.
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